Friday, December 10, 2010

Day 40

Sorry I've been a little absent.  I've seriously gotten my nose down to the books lately and have been studying my butt off on my A+ exams.

Got 1000 pages to go to finish this book... Hopefully I'll be taking the exams next month.

Other than studying not much else has been going on.  Yesterday, I had a little blip with the family, and that all got sorted out.  Due to a situation, I emailed all my family members, unsure of how they were going to take it.  I was pleasantly surprised.  Fortunately, I had written the email the night before and slept on it and did some editing before I sent it... the original was much less nicer.

Wise advice: never send a letter in the heat of the moment.  It might sound perfect then - but you may come to regret it later.

So, tonight I'm off to a company christmas party of my wife's.  Should be fun... I hope.  There are prizes!


Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Day 38

Starting to feel alot better now.  Getting past the post COLG blues.  Thank God.

Last night I had Titanic rehearsals.  It was alot of fun actually, I haven't been part of a musical before, and this is just awesome.  I just wish I could sing like I used to before I went deaf.  Now, I can't carry a tune for the life of me.  Watching them perform their lines and then burst into song... It's fun.

Almost like Glee - live.  You just can't help feeling part of the music.

So I'll be working backstage, moving the set and stuff with a crew of 5 of us.  I'm looking forward to it ;)

Although sometime this year, I'm definitely going to audition for a part in SOMEthing out there.  As much as I love helping out in ANYthing, it'd be fun to be on the stage too somewhere down the line.


Today's a day of errands, got some house cleaning and stuff to do, and then I'm off Christmas Shopping!


Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Day 37

So.... Tuesday.

Still working through a bit of a funk.  Although, I've been writing pretty prolifically lately.  Whenever my muse strikes me, I've stopped and sat down to write, whether on my blackberry, or on the laptop if it's handy.  Probably part of it comes from feeling a little down at times, and the other part comes from having re awoken an artistic side I had too long ignored until the play.

Still going through the A Plus stuff, I have to stop procrastinating and book an exam.  I'll probably do that at some point today.

Anyways...  This morning after dropping off Jana and her friend I was driving and thinking how much our lives are like stain glass windows.  Each window tells a story about our past.  The only people who ever get to see these windows are ones we've let into our hearts.  I think it's a beautiful idea, I really liked it... Anyways, I wrote this;

Stained glass windows,
Fill every corner of my heart,
The light they let in,
The story you see.

Though you cannot peek outside,
The stained glass windows,
Tell the story of me.

Every pane of that window,
Tells a lesson I've learned,
And places I've gone,
Every shadow holds a fear that's in me.

So many stained glass windows,
They're part of my soul,
They're as fragile as any can be,
With a careless movement,
Or a misspoken word,
They shatter so easily.

Take care to admire,
If you look in my soul,
Tread softly and carefully,
With my stained glass windows,
I'll pour out my heart,
Its not shown so carelessly.

I should probably say it's a work in progress...  I think it's a little rough.  And Jana thinks it's a little dark.

Oh well.  I still like it anyways.


Monday, December 6, 2010

Day 36

We're finally done everything for Children of a Lesser God.

While we're happy to get our lives back and eat healthy, get our laundry done, and have time to workout and everything else... Alot of us are feeling a little blue this week.  So many of us put so much of our time and heart into the play, and now that it's over.  The set is wrapped up, rehearsals are done, performances made...  We all miss it a great deal.

We all miss each other too.  It's amazing how people can grow in your heart over time.  I think it's a little like Heaven.  When people become part of your life, they leave little marks on your soul, and they never go away.  So I'll treasure the friendships we've made.  I'll laugh at the drama we've had, both the good and the bad... And yeah, I'll even miss fighting with the damn projectors virtually every night.

So now I have my regular schedule back - I'll be working on my A Plus now, reading that book from cover to cover and then going for my exam.

I'll be going to rehearsals for Titanic, which performs next month.

And then after that...  Well, I've got a few other shows lined up and then I'll find the next one.

But in the meantime, I'll keep on keeping on with the friendships I've made, and remembering... The world out there is far more precious than the world I've come to think of as safe, on the computer screen or in the XBOX.

6 years of cave dwelling and keeping to myself, licking my wounds after escaping the cult...

It's nice to discover that there are passions to keep alive.  Dreams to be realized, and that life can be greater than I ever imagined.  I'll try and not be too maudlin this week.  It worries my wife too much when I'm feeling blue and down in the dumps.  From everything I've heard though, it's normal after a show is done.

To all my friends, within the cast, and those who I've met in other places along life's journey...

Thanks for making your mark.